I'll Be!!!

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 I ain't worthy, but I still believe. I ain't perfect, but I still try. I ain't smart, but I still read. I ain't beautiful, but I still love. I ain't anything near what you got, but I ain't hating. I may not be what you want, need, or fantasize, but I'm still me. Take me as I am, or leave me the way I'll be.

I have no idea where this strength is coming from. To get up when I was hurt, to care when no one has cared for me, to walk alone in the dark without anyone's hand to touch. And I guess it came from me, the knowledge that this is the person I am meant to be.



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